I have a lot to share...some of you know bits and pieces, some of you do not know anything...yet others know more than they probably would like to know. :)
I was talking to a friend this week about where I am in life. In a phase where I am working on all the crap that I dealt with over the years, but looking forward to when that is resolved.
Decided to right down all of my resentments..focus on them. Write down how each of them make me feel. There are a number of them...just off the top of my head I can think of a few.
Exgay Counselor - Makes me feel disgusted. The abuse I went through during group therapy and individual sessions is beyond anything I would wish on anyone.
My Mom - Coming out when I was in the 8th grade and having to shove it back inside...and for not talking to me hardly at all since I have come out as an adult. I miss her a lot and it hurts.
Friends - I have had several friends..several close friends stop talking to me. I miss them at times, but know that better friends are in my future.
I will probably go into more detail as I go...discussing the impacts these resentments have had on me.
Even though there is not a timeframe really to this process...I am anxious to get to that day when all of these resentments change from being stuff I am resolving/working on/processing to simply 'My Story'.
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not to toot my own horn or anything... but those of us who really matter aren't going anywhere, ever. xoxoxoxox
I wouldn't let you go anywhere. :) xoxo
oh look; I made it all about me.
When you know more, you love more...
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